My Blue Heaven

Can I Haz Cheezburger?

I recently discovered this HILARIOUS site… ICanHasCheezburger.Com

Fake

Reality checks are a painful but necessary part of life. Particularly when they involve ‘friends’. So I’ve decided I’m not gonna waste any more of my time or energy on fake people. I am who I am, and if my genuine upfront mindset about friendship doesn’t mesh well with the “London way”, so be it. I’m sure I will eventually find like-minded genuine people in this maze of superficiality. Maybe I’m just looking in the wrong place.

For now, I think I will just focus on what’s important.

Note to readers: Try not to make too many assumptions about what I may or may not be talking about here. I was quite deliberately cryptic 🙂 talking more about how I feel and my particular insights, than any details of my situation, or even my overall opinion of London. Of course if I have personally messaged you about this, you are exempt.

My 29th Birthday in Malaga, Spain

Took an impromptu long weekend mini-break to Malaga, Spain for my 29th birthday. Booked it extremely last minute at about midnight Friday night, plane departing 7:30am the next morning, got 2 hours sleep and nearly missed our flight! But it was so worth it… we arrived to beautiful blue skies, sunshine and the Mediterranean sea. We had a really chilled out weekend in a new exciting place. And this is what I love about living in London and probably one of the reasons I’m still here after 2.5 years.

And a travel vlog too – this is part 1 of 3.

2008

So another year has gone by. How quickly they fly. (Hey that rhymes!) Ok serious now.. I can’t believe how fast 2007 went by. Esp the last 6 months in my new job. I guess time flies when you’re so damn busy all the time! But here we are in 2008. And I’ve made some new years resolutions to welcome the new year. I want 2008 to be focused on health and fitness.

Last year I think I accomplished a lot in terms of my career, my music, and travel. But sadly my health and fitness (and to a lesser degree, dancing) suffered under the strain of so many things on my plate. I got sick a lot and it seemed to take me a long time to recover.. to the point where (esp in the last few months) it felt like I was sick more often than I was well. I’ve also been dealing with a lot of back/neck/shoulder pain and problems. Recurring injuries flaring up again and again due to the stress and intensity of work. I really need to get this problem seen to, and also commit myself to a long term solution. Which brings me to fitness – I plan to really focus on exercising regularly – this will not only benefit my fitness but also is a longer term solution for both my back pain AND strengthening my immune system. I think I’ve let this slide too much in the 2 & 1/2 years I’ve been in London – I’ve succumbed to the London lifestyle (which is much unhealthier in general than that in Australia).

At the same time I think I need to tackle my stress levels. I’ve found myself getting more and more stressed more easily (esp the past 5-6 months in my new job). Part of it is due to the change in workload, part of it is due to Kwai being away for work during the week (which was a change in lifestyle and added responsibility), and part of it is my tendancy to want to have everything under control and an inability to sometimes just let things go. I think this stress contributes to my back problems and my health. Was listening to a song just last week, when I was feeling frustrated and stressed at my inability to even remotely keep to my resolutions of better health only 3 days into the new year – so far I’d eaten badly, not done any exercise, worked long hours, and had become very stressed. I noticed the songs lyrics for the first time, and they kinda clicked with me, like a sort of epiphany (don’t you love it when you get these moments).

Sometimes I feel like I’m a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now and envy where I’ve been
But that’s when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I’ve got a story no one’s told

I’ve finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
And I have learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
‘Cause although we like
To know what life’s got planned
Thing like that are never in your hands
No one knows if shooting stars will land

And here is my New Years vlog:

Christmas Dinner 2007

A 5.7kg traditional roast goose with pork, sage & onion stuffing with apple sauce, cranberry sauce and gravy plus carrot and parsnips roasted with sage dressing, roast potatoes, gourmet stuffing of pork and mushrooms wrapped in bacon and finally pork and cranberry chipolata sausages wrapped in crispy bacon. Mmmmm….. It was yummy.