My Blue Heaven

Meh

Let down and hanging around
Crushed like a bug in the ground

Meh.

Bleh.

*sigh*

(Don’t mind me.)

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Happy 2005

Caught the annual NYE fireworks on Sydney Harbour last night. For some reaon, I never get sick of watching this magnificent and awesome show. I love fireworks, and it still fills me with a childish glee to behold such splendor. 🙂 I still remember the moment, standing at Milsons Point, almost under the harbour bridge… as the clock ticked to midnight and the bridge exploded in an awesome display of light. *sigh* I love it.

And so it is 2005 now. What a year this has been. And I’m not sure I mean that in a good way. Honestly, this year has gone from bad to worse as the months passed by. And now I’m standing here at the beginning of a new year, having absolutely no idea what lies ahead for me.. feeling like I’m at one of the lowest points in my life. I think 2005 will definitely be a year of self-discovery. All my life I have floated along, just doing what was expected, doing the “right” thing, following the crowd… you know – getting the good HSC mark, going to uni for the standard 3 year degree, coming out and getting a job, having a boyfriend with whom you have a outlook to marry, being involved at church, leading at the youth group. Well.. I’m no longer leading at the youth group now and no longer have the boyfriend. So.. thats 2 down.

I just don’t want to follow the crowd anymore. Doing the standard thing, worrying about whether my actions have the approval of others, but not really truly believing in what I’m doing. Hm.. meh.. I dunno what thats supposed to mean.

Anyways. Sorry this post has turned into a ranting morbidly depressive post. Here’s to a Happy New Year. Hope its better than the last one eh. I leave you with this magnificent photo.

Disclaimer: Many thanks to Andrew Newton for the amazing NYE photography. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THESE PHOTOS AS THEY DO NOT BELONG TO ME AND I HAVE ASKED HIM PERMISSION TO USE THEM. And I also blame my bodies hormonal cycle for this post. (Reads: I’m currently “surfing the crimson wave”).

Current listening :: “Let Down” – Radiohead (“Let down and hanging around.. crushed like a bug in the ground…” Hehe.. nice song. :P)

Moody

Hmm. I can feel my mood taking a nose-dive into the more murky depths of melancholiness. I wonder if “that time” is approaching? Maybe I’m just tired. Meh. I feel like listening to my darker, depressive, sad yet sweet, angsty, and more passionately raw music. Gimme some George, gimme some Bic Runga, gimme some Bluebottle Kiss, gimme some Something For Kate, gimme some Doves, gimme some Radiohead, gimme some Cure…..

Have set winamp playlist to shuffle through a nice selection of appropriate albums.

Rant rant ranty rant rant. *sigh*

Current listening :: “Melody Calls” – Doves

iTunes shuffle meme

Thanks to aileen for this iTunes shuffle meme. 🙂

Instructions:

1. Open up the music player on your computer.
2. Set it to play your entire music collection.
3. Hit the “shuffle” command.
4. Tell us the title of the next ten songs that show up (with
   their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. That’s right, no skipping that
   Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It’s time for
   total musical honesty.
5. Write it up in your blog or journal and link back to at
   least a couple of the other sites where you saw this.
6. If you get the same artist twice, you may skip the second
   (or third, or etc.) occurances. You don’t have to, but since randomness could
   mean you end up with a list of ten song with five artists, you can if you’d
   like.

And here are my results:

1. Ben Folds – “Annie Waits”
2. Simon and Garfunkel – “Mrs Robinson”
3. Eve Ft Gwen Stefani – “Let Me Blow Ya Mind”
4. The Village People – “YMCA”
5. Jennifer Lopez – “If You Had My Love”
6. Mandy Moore – “Candy”
7. Mariah Carey – “Dreamlover”
8. You Am I – “Damage”
9. Britney Spears – “Lonely”
10. Jack Johnson – “Inaudible Melodies”

So there you have it. Hehe. The shuffle worked quite well actually. Gave a good selection across the large range of songs I own. Not bad for choosing 10 out of 1500 odd songs! Had to skip a repeat of Ben Folds, and a Hilary Duff “interlude” track that I’d never listen to anyway.

*sigh* Work is sooooo boring today. Hardly anyone here, inc my boss! Been bludging the whole day, as I really have no work at all to do. Think I’ll prob go home early too. Gotta love it! 🙂

Current listening :: “Belter” – Powderfinger

Miscellaney

Man I’m tired. Just feeling all relaxed after an afternoon at the beach, and a yummy dinner with the family for my mum’s birthday. Went to a chinese resturant and stuffed ourselves silly with lobster, steamed fish, tofu hotpot and beef & veg. 😀

Anyway, I’ve been having a very nice Xmas break – pity its back to work tomorrow for me. But over the last 4 days, I manged to relax lots, spent quality time with family, watched a moofie (Blade: Trinity), went the beach, and caught the post-christmas sales!! I bought a whole heap of clothes… yay!! They include 2 pairs of really nice jeans (“Grab” jeans, if u know the brand) – half price! Two really pretty flowy skirts (turquoise floral and white – almost half price too!) and a couple of singlet tops to match – from Just Jeans. And finally this gorgeous Cooper St dress. Soooo pretty and flowy and feminine! Its chocolate with swirly blue/turquoise patterns. Pic below. 🙂

Ah well, back to work tomm. Sucks. 🙁

Current listening :: “She Wants To Move” – N.E.R.D