My Blue Heaven

Getting on

My left knee hurts. As does my right shoulder/neck area. And apparently one of my left shoulder rotator muscles has been injured, not healed properly, and in need of treatment by a Chiropractor.

Is this normal for a 25 year old?!? I feel like quite the elderly woman, with all these aches and pains and Chiropractor bookings. I was having a conversation at lunch today with a girlfriend, who is only about a year or so older than me. She sympathised, commenting that she too has started to notice all these aches and pains, and that things just aren’t as immune to hurt and damage as they once seemed.. back in the younger days of our teens/early twenties.

Darn it. I am getting older. :\ Now where did I put those spectacles….

Current listening :: “Wasting Time” – Jack Johnson

Buckle down

Alright. Time for me to really get this work project done. Don’t expect many elaborate posts for the next week or so. (So those Jervis photos are gonna have to wait!) I may post small updates in between tasks though. Lets see if I can get this project done in half the time I estimated. (Damn procrastination *sigh*). I suppose I’ll just have to work late to make up for it… maybe even weekends if I really need to.

Sometimes I really wish I could escape everything. I just don’t want to deal with it all anymore… with my life and everything in it. At the risk of sounding pathetic and self-absorbed, I’m kinda really hating my life at the moment. A new life would be rather nice at this time. One that isn’t as screwed over as mine.

/rant

/wallow

Current listening :: “A New Life” – Frank Wildhorn (performed by Linda Eder)

Poor kitty!

Hahahaha. Check out this very funny cat video. Poor kitty!! But its such a cack! Hehehe… 🙂

I have come to clean zee pool

Check out this guy I saw on the train last night. Wow… porno glasses, mustache, boofy hair (nearly a mullet!)… but the most ewwww thing about him was that he was checking me out… from the seat directly across the aisle from mine. Ewwwww! Its so yuck when dirty old men do that.

And so it begins again

I went to the first jazz fusion class for the year last night! Woohoo! So it begins again! Man I’ve missed playing.. esp such cool and interesting music such as this. We played a new song last night, by Pat Metheny, called “Every Summer Night”. It was so much fun to play. The chords were pretty easy, which made me happy, and the rhythm was pretty straightforward. Except for the constant change of time signatures, which made the song more interesting! We went from 4/4 to 2/4 to 4/4 to 3/4 then back to 4/4. Fun! 🙂

I did suprisingly well in the class, considering I haven’t touched this stuff since last year! I’m so lazy! Lets break it down:

• My technique and fingers were a bit rusty… doing the warm-up 5 finger exercises at the start demonstrated that much. The left hand was especially un-co too.. hehe.
• But I suprisingly remembered most of my jazz chords, esp my 2-5-1’s. That was pretty cool. My hands remembered the shape of the chords, even the some of the more complex ones.
• Rhythm wasn’t too bad either, just a bit slow on the uptake, coz my fingers needed to warm up. And I fumbled a bit in the 5/4 time sig.
• My improvising was so-so… which is to be expected. I just have to refresh my modes knowledge. I also really need to sit down one day and actually learn my altered and diminished blues scales.. in all 12 keys!! Now thats gonna be a task and a half. :\

So yeh, all in all it was a fun class. And I’m looking forward to performing again in the end of term concert in 10 weeks time. Eek!

In other news.. have been dealing with a mixture of rather negative emotions lately. Guilt, sadness, depression, loss, loneliness, discouragement, unenthusiasm, indifference, apathy, listlessness.. I suppose its only natural. But yeh… s’no fun. Think I hear some rich & creamy chocolate ice-cream calling… from somewhere over in Pitt St mall… could be opposite Sydney Central Plaza… with that orange/brown sign. Australian Ice-cream, here I come! 🙂

Current listening :: “Whats Up Lonely” – Kelly Clarkson

Temperament Sorter

For some reason, I love personality quizzes. And I’ve had a rather fun morning procrastinating, taking various personality tests. After doing two different tests (that use the same measure in their results), I’ve established that I’m (still) an ESFP (Artisan Performer). Though very VERY borderline to an ISFP (Artisan Composer). Basically coz I’m just about 50/50 on the Extraverted vs Introverted scale.

So what does all this mean? I’ve been looking at two different websites that explains the different temperaments. Typelogic and the Keirsey Temperament Sorter. Here’s a summary of the four different criterion:

1. The first criterion defines the source and direction of energy expression for a person. The extrovert (E) has a source and direction of energy expression mainly in the external world while the introvert (I) has a source of energy mainly in the internal world.
2. The second criterion defines the method of information perception by a person. Sensing (S) means that a person believes mainly information he receives directly from the external world. Intuition (N) means that a person believes mainly information he receives from the internal or imaginative world.
3. The third criterion defines how the person processes information. Thinking (T) means that a person makes a decision mainly through logic. Feeling (F) means that, as a rule, he makes a decision based on emotion.
4. The fourth criterion defines how a person implements the information he has processed. Judging (J) means that a person organizes all his life events and acts strictly according to his plans. Perceiving (P) means that he is inclined to improvise and seek alternatives.

(Taken from Humanmetrics.)

The tests I’ve taken to find these results are this one and this one. There’s also the Keirsey one, but you have to pay to get the full report.

Anyways, if you have time to waste, do these tests, and let me know which of the sixteen temperaments you are. I find this sorta thing extremely interesting (and hence have just wasted a whole morning at work on this :P).

Chiropractors are cool

I also had a complimentory chiropractor consultation at my gym this morning, to take a look at my shoulder and my knee. My shoulder has been giving me twinges for the past few months whenever I do a particular exercise at the gym, if I’m tired or not doing it quite correctly enough. So I find out that I’ve somehow managed to injure my shoulder (dunno when or where or how), and that I need to get it treated (better now than to wait till it really gets bad). I was like, I had no idea this was wrong with me!



As for my knee, its my left one giving me grief.. hurting, esp when in particular positions when sitting or walking. Apparently its really quite loose, coz the muscles are very weak. So she says this one is easily solved by doing exercises for that knee muscle. She recommended having a personal training session so I can get personalised exercises for my knee.

Anyways, that, all in a 15 minute consultation… all she did was poke around at various joints and muscles, and she could come up with all that. Pretty cool! I’m not looking forward to treating my shoulder tho…. she warned that it would hurt. Eek!

In other news.. photos from Jervis are coming soon. When I get around to resizing, retouching, and uploading the pics. 🙂

Current listening :: “Come Clean” – Hilary Duff

Off to Jervis

Woohoo. Friday arvo finally. Got Glue tonite.. then tomorrow I’m off with a few friends for a short 3 night getaway at this beachfront house in Jervis Bay. Should be good. It’ll be nice to just get out of Sydney, hang out with friends, sleep in, relax on the beach, and just soak in some more sun. Not that I need to get anymore tanned!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend! I’ll be back on Wed.. until then..

In the meantime, you can amuse yourself playing this amusing and addictive game. Heheh. 🙂

Current listening :: More Than Life – Hillsong United (Yep I bought the latest Hillsong United cd.. *guilty cough*)

Just another sad love song

Warning: particularly revealing and honest post ahead. I may delete/modify it later. We’ll see.

Been listening to some rather sad songs, last night and today. Stuff like Jeff Buckley’s “Grace”, Bic Runga, Coldplay. Funny how certain songs and albums can be so poignant.. so moving… and have attached to them such powerful memories. Funny how some albums are the soundtrack to certain parts of your life.

It was emotional, to say the least. Balling my eyes out in bed, listening to Jeff Buckley, clutching a certain soft toy in my arms. Some might call it masochistic. But then, maybe it’s good to face these things.. these emotions and memories. One day I’ll stop crying. I hope he will too.

“Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start”

More poignant lyrics can be found on my Lyrics page.

Current listening :: “The Scientist” – Coldplay

Schtuff

Nothing much to say today. Its been stinking hot… thank God for air conditioning. Tis a good day to be in the office, if there ever was one! 🙂 Anyway, I’ve been playing around with some features in Movable Type. If you’ve noticed, I’ve added a “Recently” box which lists the last 8 blog entries, and the date they were posted. Maybe I should get around to using more of the extensive functionality that movable type provides.. mmm.

So yeh.. I just saw the preview for the latest Mandy Moore flick, “Chasing Liberty”. Can’t wait!! (We have to wait till 8th April here in Australia… ugh it sucks).

Current listening :: “Suddenly Strange” – Bic Runga

Suicidal dash

Kazzart’s new personal definition of suicidal: to run pell-mell up a flight of stairs and down another, whilst wearing loose havaianas and a skirt, to catch a train that had been sitting on platform 2 of West Ryde station since you arrived at the bus stop. One of these days I’m gonna kill myself doing that. Especially with the taking two or three stairs at a time part.

Anyway, not much time to blog at the moment. I have an impending meeting with the Image dept manager at my work. After seeing an e-newsletter I designed for another business dept, they now want me to design one for them, and a few other depts.. fun fun. 😛

This is a refreshingly honest post. Particularly poignant considering my post yesterday, and stuff I’ve been thinking about lately.

Jam

(Added: 4:04pm) Hm.. looks like its a no show for that meeting. Anyway, last night I actually went and jammed with those musos. It was fun! The band is called “Ruby” and they have a bass player, guitarist and drummer. They play mostly blues/rock’n’roll. The kind of music you hear at pubs and RSL’s, to which the oldies can to get up and dance. Stuff by Elvis, The Beatles, even some Santana.. songs such as “Don’t Be Cruel”, “Hound Dog”, “Blue Suede Shoes”, “Mustang Sally” etc. Pretty simple stuff.. upbeat and bluesy.. usually with only 3 chords (and the truth :P).

I had fun. I used his little keyboard (coz I came straight from work), and just played along and improvised. Even took a few solos. We played from about 7ish to 10ish. I have a rather sore coccyx today coz of how I was sitting for those 2 / 3 hours.

However, the highlight of the evening was discovering that he and his wife have a cat! An absolutely beautiful siamese named Cindy (short for Cindarella). She is sooo gorgeous and affectionate!! With brilliant blue eyes.. and is really really vocal! You talk to her, and she’ll talk right back! Argh! I want a siamese cat next! 🙂

Current listening :: “Heard A Word” – Michelle Williams

Blogger’s Paradox revisited

I’ve just been catching up on the last month’s blog entries at this guy’s blog. Reading his entries reminds me once again of what blogging should be about.. at least for me. To me, its about revealing your thoughts and emotions.. revealing and giving a part of yourself to that unknown audience on the world wide web. Its about saying what’s really on your mind, what troubles you, touches you, makes you laugh, annoys you, stresses you out. That’s the stuff I want to blog about, yet I constantly find myself merely skimming the surface of the trivialities in my life.

*sigh* I do apologise for the decline in quality of blog entries. They’ve been pretty mundane and boring. I seem to lack inspiration.. and the stuff that IS on my mind, I cannot blog about.. perhaps because too many people involved in the issues that are on my mind read this blog. And so we come to a bloggers paradox once again. Then again… would it really matter if I blog about people who read this? Should I assume that I have bloggers prerogative in being able to freely express my thoughts, whatever they may be, on my personal blog. Does this disclaimer really hold true? I know I’ve blogged about this sort of thing before, and it may seem like I’m going in circles around the same issue. Blah. I’ll eventually resolve this… one day.. one way or another.

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