My Blue Heaven

Moody

Hmm. I can feel my mood taking a nose-dive into the more murky depths of melancholiness. I wonder if “that time” is approaching? Maybe I’m just tired. Meh. I feel like listening to my darker, depressive, sad yet sweet, angsty, and more passionately raw music. Gimme some George, gimme some Bic Runga, gimme some Bluebottle Kiss, gimme some Something For Kate, gimme some Doves, gimme some Radiohead, gimme some Cure…..

Have set winamp playlist to shuffle through a nice selection of appropriate albums.

Rant rant ranty rant rant. *sigh*

Current listening :: “Melody Calls” – Doves

iTunes shuffle meme

Thanks to aileen for this iTunes shuffle meme. 🙂

Instructions:

1. Open up the music player on your computer.
2. Set it to play your entire music collection.
3. Hit the “shuffle” command.
4. Tell us the title of the next ten songs that show up (with
   their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. That’s right, no skipping that
   Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It’s time for
   total musical honesty.
5. Write it up in your blog or journal and link back to at
   least a couple of the other sites where you saw this.
6. If you get the same artist twice, you may skip the second
   (or third, or etc.) occurances. You don’t have to, but since randomness could
   mean you end up with a list of ten song with five artists, you can if you’d
   like.

And here are my results:

1. Ben Folds – “Annie Waits”
2. Simon and Garfunkel – “Mrs Robinson”
3. Eve Ft Gwen Stefani – “Let Me Blow Ya Mind”
4. The Village People – “YMCA”
5. Jennifer Lopez – “If You Had My Love”
6. Mandy Moore – “Candy”
7. Mariah Carey – “Dreamlover”
8. You Am I – “Damage”
9. Britney Spears – “Lonely”
10. Jack Johnson – “Inaudible Melodies”

So there you have it. Hehe. The shuffle worked quite well actually. Gave a good selection across the large range of songs I own. Not bad for choosing 10 out of 1500 odd songs! Had to skip a repeat of Ben Folds, and a Hilary Duff “interlude” track that I’d never listen to anyway.

*sigh* Work is sooooo boring today. Hardly anyone here, inc my boss! Been bludging the whole day, as I really have no work at all to do. Think I’ll prob go home early too. Gotta love it! 🙂

Current listening :: “Belter” – Powderfinger

Miscellaney

Man I’m tired. Just feeling all relaxed after an afternoon at the beach, and a yummy dinner with the family for my mum’s birthday. Went to a chinese resturant and stuffed ourselves silly with lobster, steamed fish, tofu hotpot and beef & veg. 😀

Anyway, I’ve been having a very nice Xmas break – pity its back to work tomorrow for me. But over the last 4 days, I manged to relax lots, spent quality time with family, watched a moofie (Blade: Trinity), went the beach, and caught the post-christmas sales!! I bought a whole heap of clothes… yay!! They include 2 pairs of really nice jeans (“Grab” jeans, if u know the brand) – half price! Two really pretty flowy skirts (turquoise floral and white – almost half price too!) and a couple of singlet tops to match – from Just Jeans. And finally this gorgeous Cooper St dress. Soooo pretty and flowy and feminine! Its chocolate with swirly blue/turquoise patterns. Pic below. 🙂

Ah well, back to work tomm. Sucks. 🙁

Current listening :: “She Wants To Move” – N.E.R.D

Merry Christmas!

Well. Can’t believe christmas is finally here.. well in 8 hours time anyway. Another year gone by so fast. Where does it all go? I’ve got myself a lot of thinking and self-discovery to do in the new year. A fresh start for Kazzart. 🙂

Meanwhile… for some reason I’m not really getting into the whole christmas thing this year. I’m just ‘meh’ about it all. In the past I’ve been the mega excited one with christmas, but over the years that child-like glee has faded. And this year… well I think you can understand the external factors that may have influenced my lack of christmas-zeal. Its not that I’m depressed – not at all. I’m feeling quite at peace actually. Its just that I don’t really feel like getting all celebratory. Say tonight for example.. I’m probably gonna be home alone, on christmas eve.. but I don’t mind at all! 🙂

Hrm. Was also gonna write something about how the blatant commercialism of christmas is kinda bugging me this year… but I can’t be bothered. I really haven’t gotten into buying anything this christmas… no cards, pressies or anything. Maybe I’m just giving it a rest for one year. I don’t usually get many cards (usually give out way more than I recieve) and hardly ever a present these past few years anyway, so yeh, starting to wonder if I should bother? Its not about presents and cards anyway.

Anyways, here I am still at work! Most people have gone home already. My boss even sent an email out telling us we could all have an early mark! 🙂 Suppose I should be leaving soon.. ish.. But the net connection / computer at work is so much better than at home. For one my computer at home SUX! Soo slow these days. Think I need a reinstall… or better yet, a new comp! 🙁 And secondly, we’ve been capped to 28.8K now!! Went over our 1GB download limit! Doh! Its my bro’s fault too. Grrr… 😛 Now we have to wait till 1st Jan for cable speeds again. *sigh*

Ah well. Having posted an ever-so-slightly anti-christmas post, I’m now gonna wish you all a very Merry (and Meaningful) Christmas. 🙂 Hope you all have a great day tomorrow, whatever you’re doing.

Current listening :: “Into You” – Fabolous

The trouble with love is

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can’t deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It’ll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie

Wired

Mmmm….. cooofffeeeeee…… 😀

Man I was sooooo tired this morning. But now that I am about 90% of the way through my large mocha, I’m feelin pretty good. I’ve never had such a clear effect on my awakeness by coffee. But damn, I am feeling wired!

[….. 1 day later….]

Hmm.. never got around to posting that post! Ah well. I’m still really tired… too many late nights, too many days in a row!! 😐

Anyways, home time for me!

Coming clean

Ok enough subtlety. You may have noticed that my blog has been spouting some rather depressive lyrics of late. Of course there’s a reason behind it all. Pretty obvious if you ask me.

Yes, Paul and I have broken up, as of Monday night. Yes, he broke up with me.

Want more sordid details? You have permission to contact me personally – email or otherwise.

And yes. Life goes on. Though it hasn’t really felt like it was going to, over the past few days. You know how it goes.. for those who have experienced heartbreak.. your world falls to pieces, crying non-stop, and you have nfi what to do with yourself. Your mind attempts to comprehend the whole concept. That he/she will not be in your life anymore. All your plans and hopes and dreams for your future with them are blown away in one fell swoop. Ok, maybe I’m being just a tad melodramatic now. I know time will heal this and it was probably for the best and there’s someone better out there for me and blah blah blah. I guess I’ll be ok.. with time.

Tell you what, relationships are gonna be a strict no-no for a while. Go the single life! Someone slap me please if they see me getting entangled in another too soon. I think I’ve finally gained a healthy respect and fear of relationships and what they can do to you (and others).

It’s also interesting to note that at times like this you discover who your true friends really are.. and it’s the most unlikely of people who seem to be the most helpful.

Current listening :: “Monkey Wrench” – Foo Fighters (Ahh… angsty music therapy! Speaking of which.. music is something I intend to throw myself into.. really need to brush up my piano skills again! Anyone wanna jam?)

I’ll forget you

I’ll forget you
The more you stay inside of me, the weaker I grow
I’ll forget you
Tomorrow I will turn and let you go
I’ll grow colder
I’ll lose myself in anything but you now,
For there is nothing I can do now, but forget

I’ll forget you
I’ve got to find the strength to pull away from your glow
I’ll forget you
God help me see the way to let you go!
I do not want you
And still you steal each breath I’m breathing from me
With just a touch, you overcome me
And I let you
I will forget you
When I die
I will forget you
I will forget you

Burnt

This one is yours. Think you might like it.

I don’t understand, why..
See it’s burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don’t mean I want to
What I’m trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now
Than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it’s best for yourself, but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it’s over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn


Current listening :: “Burn” – Usher

Bruised

Oh no
Love just leaves you bruised if you wanna know
then find something to lose

Good song.

Current listening :: “Bruised” – The Bens