My Blue Heaven

I miss music

I’ve been going through some archive recordings of gigs I’ve performed in the past. Such as the Saltlight “This Way Up” album launch, my performance at Ernie’s wedding, jazz concerts at the Conservatorium. Listening to these performances (cringing occasionally :P) really brings back strong memories. And it makes me realise something. I really, REALLY miss playing the piano. I miss being involved in creating and performing music. I miss having music as a part of my life. It’s been in my life since I was 6 years old. And for the last 8/9 months, I haven’t been able to play at all because I don’t have access to a piano. I also miss singing. I just miss music – making music.

It’s hard to describe what I feel as I listen to those old performances. The things I remember… like the few minutes before the Saltlight Launch.. I vividly remember standing at the window, trying to breathe in the cool night air.. because I was so nervous that I was shaking. Then walking up the stairs onto the stage with the band to massive cheering. That was a pretty cool moment – the audience was so supportive.. the atmosphere of that night was awesome. 🙂

I want to experience things like that again. I want to perform again. To play again. To jam again. To get in that “zone” with my band mates. To almost be able to read each others minds because we knew each others playing styles so well. *sigh* Ok I’m starting to get all soppy and emotional now.

Anyway. I think I’ll sign up to the next piano course at CityLit. I missed the last one, Jazz Piano 1 coz it filled up. There is a Latin Piano course however starting late april. That does sound very appealing. I’ve never done much latin/afro-cuban style piano playing before – it sounds really cool because the rhythm is so syncapated and complex. I’d love to be able to play like that.. esp since syncpated rhythm is one of my weaker points. So… maybe I’ll be able to keep up some form of playing… even if I don’t have a piano at home to practice. At least I’ll be playing once a week.

For those who would like to share my trip down memory lane. Audio downloads here, here and here (don’t worry the exe files aren’t viruses – they’re just some wierd format of music playback – from one of those small portable recorders). Visuals are here and here.

And now to the weather. Hehe. It was snowing this morning!! Hee! Rather mesmerising to watch snowflakes gently drift down around you whilst walking to the station. But now its turned into a fairly miserable drizzle/rain. Hopefully it’ll be cold enough for snow again tonight. 🙂 Pilates last night was great… the class was just what I needed. Challenging, but I felt energised and refreshed afterwards. Its also at an LA Fitness closer to work, conveniently on my route home. Methinks wed night is gonna become pilates night!

Current listening :: “In Gods Eyes (live)” – Veronica Abednego (With me on piano.. 😛 man that song pushed my playing abilities!! Talk about sore hands.. Hehehe..)

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