My Blue Heaven

Procrastination + Ice Cream

2:11 am Tue, 26th April 2005

With everything that I need to prepare, organise, think about, remember, pack…… I find myself wasting time being silly on cam. As you can see below. 😛

(Oh btw, it was Cookies & Cream heaven. Mmmm…)

Updates & More Ruminations

I’ve been enjoying my “holiday” thus far. No work to go to! It feels kinda strange. I am actually unemployed. (Well.. almost). Anyway, I had quite a big weekend – went clubbing on both Fri and Sat nights! Kicked it all off seeing The Cat Empire @ Enmore Theatre on Fri night (a very fun and energetic gig.. great band to see live!) with Joe + friends (*waves* hello guys if you’re reading this!), then went to Newtown RSL after for a drink.. then whilst they headed home at around 12/1am, I chugged off to Verandah Bar to join some friends for a few hours of clubbing, finishing off the night with some Matraville pies, arriving home at around 5am. :\ H4rdc0r3.

Saturday night I went to the 2nd Honey Roasted TV dance party at Greenwood Hotel. Was great! (Though I started the night practically falling asleep on my friend’s shoulder.) One of my friends won the dance comp and scored himself a free Nokia phone! Sweet! Anyway, I got into the swing of things eventually and had myself a ball of a time, dancing away. I made it an “early” night however, leaving at 3am. Spent the rest of the long weekend starting to get stuff together for the move. Oh yeh, and Sunday was my last time playing piano at Evening Service *sniff*.. *sob*. It was great playing with Sam and Andrew for one last time… it went well and I think we sounded pretty good. 🙂 I’m gonna really miss playing with those guys – it takes time to form the bond we had when we played together… almost like we could read each others minds. *sigh*

Other than that… I got so much to do. *sigh* It’s a bit stressful thinking about it all actually. For a few seconds tonight, I caught myself thinking that I didn’t want to do this whole moving over to UK thing anymore coz it just seemed like too damn much hassle. But I got over that quickly enough. It occured to me though, that is probably not the only time I’m gonna think along those lines. Ah well… must chug along and be strong. And not do stupid things like keep going to bed at 2am. Err… *cough*

This whole being strong and independant thing is kinda tough. I’m not used to it. I’ve never been a very independant/strong type. I’ve always kinda needed someone to take care of me… be it parents or boyfriend. And now, I’ve been struggling to remain strong.. in the whirlwind of events that my life has become. First the change of suddenly being single after 6 years of 3 long-term (and rather exclusive and close) relationships.. and then the huge step to move to London. (Was I crazy when I made that decision? Hehe.) *sigh* Sometimes… in times of quietness and aloneness.. I do wish I had someone to lean on again.. like I used to. (Esp going through this whole moving thing.) I can vaguely remember what it was like… for some reason it seems so long ago. And I can only vaguely remember what it was like to be in love. But I prefer not to ponder upon that one too much at this time. It is not something I am looking for at the moment.

Ack. Late night ruminations. Am getting maudlin. Methinks it is time for bed.

Current listening :: “Sly” – The Cat Empire

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