Ruminating
12:28 pm Wed, 13th April 2005I think I think too much. Hrm. And I used to think that thinking a lot about things was a good thing… but now I’m thinking that maybe thinking too much is not such a good thing all the time. Er.. make sense?
Or maybe it just depends on *what* I think about. I suppose it’s unhelpful to frequently ruminate on the negative aspects of your life… you dwell on these things and you end up spiralling down into this depressive cycle. And listening to depressive music doesn’t help either. Neither does dreaming depressing things, but I guess you can’t really help that. I was reading this website on depression, and the link between depression and sleep/dreams, and that perhaps medication wasn’t the answer.. it was interesting – (I’ve always found psychological matters interesting). Clicky here to check it out… and can any psychologists tell me if what they’re saying is valid or total crap? (Erm not saying that I have “clinical” depression or anything, but I do know people that do.. I wonder if this would be helpful for them?)
Anyway.. so how does one stop negative thoughts from over-running their mind, and prevent themselves from going into that depressive cycle? Is it as simple as “getting over yourself” and ceasing being so “selfish” and “self-centred”.. to look around and not be so inward focused? Or is there more to it…. is it not right that someone gets easily triggered into feeling depressed due to feelings of loneliness / feel they are lacking friends? Should that person just learn to become more “independant” and not rely so much on others to fulfill that need for companionship? How much is too much reliance? And then… where does God fit into this picture? Does God really solve all these problems? Does it mean you’re not trusting God enough? Is that really where the core of the problem lies? Or is it more complicated than that?
Um.. I’m starting to lose my train of thought. I think this calls for a –
/rant
I think I need to stop being so honest on my blog. And I think I need to stop thinking so much. 😛
B-Fo Obsession
In other news. Ben Folds absolutely ROCKS! I bought his new album (which I’m really loving!) and found a few rare B Sides on mp3. My new fave songs of his are:
- Hiro’s Song (this song is AWESOME and the lyrics are hilarious, I think its a B-Side from Rocking The Suburbs – Jap version)
- There’s Always Someone Cooler Than You (Sunny 16 EP & live version on Landed B Side)
- Emaline (Ben Folds Five song, from Naked Baby Photos – but I prefer the live version on Ben Folds Live)
- Trusted (on the new album)
- Learn To Live With What You Are (Sunny 16 EP)
- Landed (new album)
- Gracie (new album – very cute song.. funny lyrics too :))
Heheh err ok thats a lot. I admit it… I’m in a huge Ben Folds music phase at the moment. I’ve even been (attempting to) play some of his stuff on piano. Man its friggin hard. But fun! I’ve kinda succesfully managed to play “Army” – but those triplets are soooo fast. My left hand seriously cannot keep up. And as for Zak and Sara.. forget it!! Emaline is getting there though.. I quite enjoy playing that one.. it’s a great song! Hm I should go find some more tabs/charts.. I wanna learn to play Where’s Summer B… and One Angry Dwarf.. and more!
Current listening :: “There’s Always Someone Cooler Than You” – Ben Folds
Think of me
Any way you want
I can be
The problem if that’s easier
In your head
Move the pieces around
Things I’ve said
Turn the memory upside down
And it makes it better I know
But sometimes it’s hard to swallow
And in time I will fade away
In time I won’t hear what you’re saying
In time
But time takes time you know
Tell your friends
The things they wanna hear and see
Start the drums
Band against the enemy
And in time I will fade away
In time I won’t care what you say
In time
But time takes time you know
In your head
Move the pieces round
Things I said
Turn the memory upside down
It might make it better, I know
But sometimes it’s hard to swallow
And in time I will fade away
In time I won’t hear what you’re saying
In time
But time takes time you know
~ “Time” – Ben Folds
2 Comments on “Ruminating”
rat
Apr 13, 2005
how long until you go? i reckon you’re just spinning your wheels a bit because you’ve been working and now you’re not.
sounds to me like you’ve already done the hard stuff, i reckon you’ll have a great time
a l
Apr 14, 2005
one of my pastors has suffered from depression and has preached a few good sermons on it. he sees it not only as an emotional condition, but as a medical/biological condition that medical help should be sought if serious enough. And there should be no shame in the disease. (if you need some references, I have a sermon he preached, which i can send to you if you like. email me at my yahoo account?) thanks!